Tuesday, August 24, 2010
The wind was strong. the sky was dark. the clouds were intimidating.
Then i went cycling.
It felt great to have the wind right at your face as u sail pass the endless stretch of trees and bushes and grass. There were minimal humans around. A couple of vehicles on and off, but they were gone faster than anything. Whats living were birds and insects only i guess.
Its been long since i've last played in the rain. The rain was colder den expected, but it was great. Love the feeling of being lost in the heavy downpour..the miliions and trillions of raindrops masking my presence. Rode very slowly. Partly becoz of safety, and partly coz i just wan to enjoy the moment a little longer.
The things weighing my mind is killing me. I woke up feeling so weak i just wished i've never woken up. Actually coming to tink of it, i still know what i really want. But seriously at this point of time, i dun get to choose anymore do i? Nothing else matters anymore does it? I dun matter too.
Then i went cycling.
It felt great to have the wind right at your face as u sail pass the endless stretch of trees and bushes and grass. There were minimal humans around. A couple of vehicles on and off, but they were gone faster than anything. Whats living were birds and insects only i guess.
Its been long since i've last played in the rain. The rain was colder den expected, but it was great. Love the feeling of being lost in the heavy downpour..the miliions and trillions of raindrops masking my presence. Rode very slowly. Partly becoz of safety, and partly coz i just wan to enjoy the moment a little longer.
The things weighing my mind is killing me. I woke up feeling so weak i just wished i've never woken up. Actually coming to tink of it, i still know what i really want. But seriously at this point of time, i dun get to choose anymore do i? Nothing else matters anymore does it? I dun matter too.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Sometimes i wonder if its better to seek the truth in everything,
or to just pretend nothing's ever happened and just live on with it?
wells, guess sometimes its not up to me.
But doesn't matter, as long as it makes others happier den so be it.
We'll all be happier this way?
Maybe. i hope.
or to just pretend nothing's ever happened and just live on with it?
wells, guess sometimes its not up to me.
But doesn't matter, as long as it makes others happier den so be it.
We'll all be happier this way?
Maybe. i hope.
Monday, August 02, 2010
Duno why but i am really super emo recently. Just felt so super nagative la. I am trying so hard to be like happy seriously. Like there are times that i am really happy still yes, but whenever i start tinking stuff, it gets me emo all over again. Hate feelings like tat.
Well, things at home can really drive me up the wall sometimes. Especially when u just dun feel understand by them. Like can i just vanish from this world? it hates me anyway ar. Now i just dun ask wats God plan for me anymore.. maybe just being a bad example is The plan. So.. can i just hate this plan? duno wat am i here for seriously..
Well, things at home can really drive me up the wall sometimes. Especially when u just dun feel understand by them. Like can i just vanish from this world? it hates me anyway ar. Now i just dun ask wats God plan for me anymore.. maybe just being a bad example is The plan. So.. can i just hate this plan? duno wat am i here for seriously..