Sunday, August 28, 2005
wah sianz.. tomolo got htech paper, and two revision lectures. Hmm, sort of finish studying for htech le.. but tinking of the four other subjects is giving me headaches again. Well, i wonder how the paper would be tomolo loh.. the teacher made it sound so direct, like just memorise and go write out everything kind. haiz..
aniway, today i managed to get the van parked on my own.. as in without my dad nagging bout dis and dat. and its the first time i drove snowy around~! haa.. she's weird today, insisted on following us out for dinner. so we brought her along la, since we're just going to my grandpa house. She was so steady today loh.. seemed relaxed and happy throughout the whole journey.. haha maybe its me driving thats why she so relaxed~ haa. okay i'm going crazy.. Well, i sort of realised that snowy's cataract is getting quite serious.. she doesn't even response much to strong sunlight. but somehow its amazing how a dog can adapt to all circumstances, she's coping rather well to her failing eyesight.
hmm, got myself a new bag just now. coz my aunt selling bag now la, den she gave me one loh.. Erm, reach home around 9 just now. and snowy is lying like a log on her bed..the only part of her body thats moving is her eyes probably. and i guess i better go and pack my stuff for tomolo.. late~ tired~~ *oh yah, today is renfu's birthday wor..*
aniway, today i managed to get the van parked on my own.. as in without my dad nagging bout dis and dat. and its the first time i drove snowy around~! haa.. she's weird today, insisted on following us out for dinner. so we brought her along la, since we're just going to my grandpa house. She was so steady today loh.. seemed relaxed and happy throughout the whole journey.. haha maybe its me driving thats why she so relaxed~ haa. okay i'm going crazy.. Well, i sort of realised that snowy's cataract is getting quite serious.. she doesn't even response much to strong sunlight. but somehow its amazing how a dog can adapt to all circumstances, she's coping rather well to her failing eyesight.
hmm, got myself a new bag just now. coz my aunt selling bag now la, den she gave me one loh.. Erm, reach home around 9 just now. and snowy is lying like a log on her bed..the only part of her body thats moving is her eyes probably. and i guess i better go and pack my stuff for tomolo.. late~ tired~~ *oh yah, today is renfu's birthday wor..*
Saturday, August 27, 2005
my comp is dead. lucky i managed to revive it.. but it seems to me that it may just die any moment. no idea wats wrong.. maybe coz hard disk full, maybe coz of virus.. hmm, the free space problem is giving me headache le. i've been surviving on less den 200MB of free space loh. oh well, my fren say got an external hard disk to lend me.. but its been a week and she keep forgetting to bring loh. i can't possibly sms her everyday and ask for it rite, i tried reminding her everyday after skool.. yah in the end is still forget.
As my mother say, never rely on anyone, do everything yourself. so yep.. i'm searching for external hard disk now le..haha. tink i'll decide on the size of the hard disk space depending on their prices ba~ don't tink its cheap in the first place.
Oh well, i should be starting my revision le loh. its about a week or so to exams. Haiz~ but i can't start studying! its just not possible to sit there and study the whole day.. *roar* Hmm, heard that the skool will be rivising the graduation criterial again. my fren say maybe they'll take off all the cds grade la. So does it mean that cds no longer affects the gpa? hmm.. wonder if it'll be a good news anot. aniway, better end here before my comp dies.. cpu feels hot le..
As my mother say, never rely on anyone, do everything yourself. so yep.. i'm searching for external hard disk now le..haha. tink i'll decide on the size of the hard disk space depending on their prices ba~ don't tink its cheap in the first place.
Oh well, i should be starting my revision le loh. its about a week or so to exams. Haiz~ but i can't start studying! its just not possible to sit there and study the whole day.. *roar* Hmm, heard that the skool will be rivising the graduation criterial again. my fren say maybe they'll take off all the cds grade la. So does it mean that cds no longer affects the gpa? hmm.. wonder if it'll be a good news anot. aniway, better end here before my comp dies.. cpu feels hot le..
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
..just finish doing my practical test for htech. tink it'll be a failure again.. same slide, different people see all see different results loh. can faint sia~!
Aniway, its already a blessing dat i'm still aliving and kicking till now. cause yesterday was a terrible terrible day! two test and one presentation one after another. den somemore i'm not really in my right mind la.. i actually missed out a few qns for one test loh! didn't even realised that the qns existed! die. Den luckily the other test had quite a good 'discussion' session going on..haha. basically its the sociology presentation dat kills la. out of five groups, my group is the only one without video extracts from the movie loh. we dun even have screen shots! den my group members also dun seems bothered by the fact la. well, the presentation is suppose to be from 4-7.. but it lasted till 9 ar! den the teacher kind hearted.. ordered pizzas for us to eat. she bought 4 boxes loh.. Well, by the third group present dat time everyone weren't really listening le..haa. luckily my group first to present loh..over and done with.
haiz.. feel rather stressed out now as it approaches the exams la. had aimm tutorial just now, my results is a constant low again loh! just like my jc results.. and dats really bad! oh well, fail dis subject and my GPA will be gone~! hahaa... hmm.. tink i end here ba~ got to go back for htech lesson le..haa. by the way, i'm just at the comp lab beside the htech lab loh..hahaha~!!
Aniway, its already a blessing dat i'm still aliving and kicking till now. cause yesterday was a terrible terrible day! two test and one presentation one after another. den somemore i'm not really in my right mind la.. i actually missed out a few qns for one test loh! didn't even realised that the qns existed! die. Den luckily the other test had quite a good 'discussion' session going on..haha. basically its the sociology presentation dat kills la. out of five groups, my group is the only one without video extracts from the movie loh. we dun even have screen shots! den my group members also dun seems bothered by the fact la. well, the presentation is suppose to be from 4-7.. but it lasted till 9 ar! den the teacher kind hearted.. ordered pizzas for us to eat. she bought 4 boxes loh.. Well, by the third group present dat time everyone weren't really listening le..haa. luckily my group first to present loh..over and done with.
haiz.. feel rather stressed out now as it approaches the exams la. had aimm tutorial just now, my results is a constant low again loh! just like my jc results.. and dats really bad! oh well, fail dis subject and my GPA will be gone~! hahaa... hmm.. tink i end here ba~ got to go back for htech lesson le..haa. by the way, i'm just at the comp lab beside the htech lab loh..hahaha~!!
Saturday, August 13, 2005
guess i'm having migraine attacks, it doesn't seem to be mere headaches. Argh,still trying hard to cramp piles of info into my limited brain capacity. tomolo is sociology term test, and dis subject can't really afford to badly la. can't let a cds subject pull my gpa down loh. Have been feeling like a stone recently, so many things to do, no idea where to start from.
by the way, i guess i should be fine. have been trying to behave more like a normal poly student should. but its difficult~ i know i'm older.. i should be accomplishing more den wats expected.. But i'm not. Oh well, life still goes on.. time never allows you to hesitate.
by the way, i guess i should be fine. have been trying to behave more like a normal poly student should. but its difficult~ i know i'm older.. i should be accomplishing more den wats expected.. But i'm not. Oh well, life still goes on.. time never allows you to hesitate.
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
i had dis qns in my mind for the whole day.. what the heck am i doing on earth? this type of qns i have though about it thousands of times..but not even once i could give myself a satisfactory answer. Oh well, i do know God has a plan for everyone..and everyone have their purpose on earth. but wat am i here for? to be a joker or sumthg?.. well, the world seems to function normally without me.. or rather, seemed to function better without me. okay, i am a waste of resources..
Hmm, hate the feeling of being squashed in the middle of sumthg. And the best part, have been encountering such situations many many times! not that i can't handle such situations.. but why me? can't i be the one on either side putting the blame on someone else? its just so easy to push all responsibility away as long as you're not the middle person.
went skool for a single lab session today.. and dat lab session sucks! the teacher is extra irritating.. tok to him nicely and he shoots back like the whole world offended him. Den i had 3 hours of free time before i meet up with AB18 ppl. spent the three hours with my current classmates la. Erm aniway, met ab18 ppl at around 6.. coz we all going for dinner together ma, together with our care person Dr lim. Went swensens for dinner, and its dr lim treat la. seriously i tink he's so unwilling to pay, but too bad he's being forced into it. He didn't eat any food the whole night loh, saying his throat not feeling well.. But the few of us felt rather guilty making him pay so much. so we tried getting everyone to pay abit, but it wasn't easy loh. a supposedly pleasant dinner gathering turns out to be rather weird feeling.
Eh, by the time i'm on bus is already 10 plus.. i'm like so tired le lor, den saw gina's msg.. saying she not going for tomolo's ndp le. oh well, so be it la.. so i asked around to see if anyone else interested. Well... no. Later in the night hear from zhen aso.. saying she aso dun wanna go le. Hmm, seriously i surprisingly wasn't angry. guess the feeling was more of disappointed more den anything else.. its not about the tix..serious. i mean tixs are just mere objects.. but its the friendship dat struck me most. i can't really explain, and guess i'll not try to explain it. yah watever.. this topic would end right here. no further comments should ever be made.
Hmm, hate the feeling of being squashed in the middle of sumthg. And the best part, have been encountering such situations many many times! not that i can't handle such situations.. but why me? can't i be the one on either side putting the blame on someone else? its just so easy to push all responsibility away as long as you're not the middle person.
went skool for a single lab session today.. and dat lab session sucks! the teacher is extra irritating.. tok to him nicely and he shoots back like the whole world offended him. Den i had 3 hours of free time before i meet up with AB18 ppl. spent the three hours with my current classmates la. Erm aniway, met ab18 ppl at around 6.. coz we all going for dinner together ma, together with our care person Dr lim. Went swensens for dinner, and its dr lim treat la. seriously i tink he's so unwilling to pay, but too bad he's being forced into it. He didn't eat any food the whole night loh, saying his throat not feeling well.. But the few of us felt rather guilty making him pay so much. so we tried getting everyone to pay abit, but it wasn't easy loh. a supposedly pleasant dinner gathering turns out to be rather weird feeling.
Eh, by the time i'm on bus is already 10 plus.. i'm like so tired le lor, den saw gina's msg.. saying she not going for tomolo's ndp le. oh well, so be it la.. so i asked around to see if anyone else interested. Well... no. Later in the night hear from zhen aso.. saying she aso dun wanna go le. Hmm, seriously i surprisingly wasn't angry. guess the feeling was more of disappointed more den anything else.. its not about the tix..serious. i mean tixs are just mere objects.. but its the friendship dat struck me most. i can't really explain, and guess i'll not try to explain it. yah watever.. this topic would end right here. no further comments should ever be made.
Sunday, August 07, 2005
啊风好大噢! 吹到我头发都乱了..虽然一开始已经很乱了。Hmm..今天感触蛮多的，所以就决定用华文.. 哎呀谁叫我的英文是private limited。
今天忽然觉得，有些事似乎躲也躲不了。在生命的过程中，你会得到很多，也会失去很多。人往往留意到的只是自己失去的，而也会因此感到很失落。我只能说，这一切都是成长的代价。当成长的过程没有想象中完美，当失去的比得到的多，当环境逼这你长大时.. 这一切也只能一一的面对。
今天领悟的第二个道理.. 同一样东西在不同人眼中，价值可以差很多很多。可能这个道理每个人都懂，可是当你真正体会到时.. 感觉真的很不可思议。为什么会有如此大的差别呢? 当我真正感受到那两极化的反映时，第一反映是失落。或许是我一向把人性看得太单纯了吧。事情不单只有黑和白两面，中间最大的部份，也是最常被人遗忘的部份是灰色地带。
每次想这些有的没有的道理时，总会觉得很疲惫。似乎生命为我们预备的体验好多，等待我们学习的也数不尽.. 好累~~
今天忽然觉得，有些事似乎躲也躲不了。在生命的过程中，你会得到很多，也会失去很多。人往往留意到的只是自己失去的，而也会因此感到很失落。我只能说，这一切都是成长的代价。当成长的过程没有想象中完美，当失去的比得到的多，当环境逼这你长大时.. 这一切也只能一一的面对。
今天领悟的第二个道理.. 同一样东西在不同人眼中，价值可以差很多很多。可能这个道理每个人都懂，可是当你真正体会到时.. 感觉真的很不可思议。为什么会有如此大的差别呢? 当我真正感受到那两极化的反映时，第一反映是失落。或许是我一向把人性看得太单纯了吧。事情不单只有黑和白两面，中间最大的部份，也是最常被人遗忘的部份是灰色地带。
每次想这些有的没有的道理时，总会觉得很疲惫。似乎生命为我们预备的体验好多，等待我们学习的也数不尽.. 好累~~
wah my back hurts like crap..tink coz yesterday stand too much le. Well,yesterday was ccn day in skool ma. den went all around skool looking at all the booths loh. Later in the evening went to indoor stadium, coz its the first night of the FOP,festival of praise.
Erm, reached rather late la..and there was dis extremely long queue outside. we almost tot of going home when we saw the queue. aniway, was in the queue for about 30 mins before we got into the stadium. dis year is extremely packed..maybe its becoz there's two bands, hillsongs and delirious. Both were very power bands i could say. but somehow put together couldn't really bring about the praise and worship very well.
Well,i haven't experience such great praise & worship session for such a long time. its really nice to see thousands of people fellowshipping together..the feeling is just great! but i was sitting with my classmates..they're non-believers, and they couldn't really join in the singing part la. its abit wasted i feel..they didn't feel involved, and was rather bored loh.
oh well,we were standing most of the time through the whole event. and it was till i reached home dat i felt the pain~ had to stay home today, couldn't even go for the firework festival concert thing.. well, at least i finished all my online quizes for sociology..haha!!
Erm, reached rather late la..and there was dis extremely long queue outside. we almost tot of going home when we saw the queue. aniway, was in the queue for about 30 mins before we got into the stadium. dis year is extremely packed..maybe its becoz there's two bands, hillsongs and delirious. Both were very power bands i could say. but somehow put together couldn't really bring about the praise and worship very well.
Well,i haven't experience such great praise & worship session for such a long time. its really nice to see thousands of people fellowshipping together..the feeling is just great! but i was sitting with my classmates..they're non-believers, and they couldn't really join in the singing part la. its abit wasted i feel..they didn't feel involved, and was rather bored loh.
oh well,we were standing most of the time through the whole event. and it was till i reached home dat i felt the pain~ had to stay home today, couldn't even go for the firework festival concert thing.. well, at least i finished all my online quizes for sociology..haha!!
Thursday, August 04, 2005
woah.. i'm quite dead now. dead tired. Lucky skool was quite slack today. we had like so many hours of break time, and even if its tutorial, we'll still be crapping away..haha. Oh, we were toking bout the channel u the project superstar thing during our fpath tutorial, den my classmate got so excited she toked really loudly. haha, the teacher aso cannot do anything aso la.. guess she aso heck care one loh.
Eh, i was rather pissed off by a person today. tried being more objective le, but just can't help but to anti the person la. never knew dat one person quite pissed me off so much..(-.-" Aniway, met sarah and jui for an hour or so in the afternoon. we were trying to look for a place where we can slack officially..haha. Arh, why do make poly life sounds so relaxing.. hmm...
Erm, dis two days have to rush out my biochem project le, den got comm skills to do aso. And i've got like so many online quizes left undone.. i tot poly life was suppose to be relaxing *hmpf*
Eh, i was rather pissed off by a person today. tried being more objective le, but just can't help but to anti the person la. never knew dat one person quite pissed me off so much..(-.-" Aniway, met sarah and jui for an hour or so in the afternoon. we were trying to look for a place where we can slack officially..haha. Arh, why do make poly life sounds so relaxing.. hmm...
Erm, dis two days have to rush out my biochem project le, den got comm skills to do aso. And i've got like so many online quizes left undone.. i tot poly life was suppose to be relaxing *hmpf*
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
So little time~ so many things to do! Gonna faint any moment.. extremely tired now loh. lesson at 9 today, and my mum woke me up at 6! wow..reach skool at 8 loh..(-.-"
aniway, tot today can come home earlier coz the sociology tutorial suppose to be less den 30 mins. But well, the teacher was late for 30 mins! den for the next 40 mins she was almost toking to herself.. coz practically half the class fell asleep le.
Oh well, i'm quite irritable now.. so guess i should stop doing my biochem project, or i may just tear it up any moment. Shall go and sleep liaoz..
aniway, tot today can come home earlier coz the sociology tutorial suppose to be less den 30 mins. But well, the teacher was late for 30 mins! den for the next 40 mins she was almost toking to herself.. coz practically half the class fell asleep le.
Oh well, i'm quite irritable now.. so guess i should stop doing my biochem project, or i may just tear it up any moment. Shall go and sleep liaoz..
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Feeling like a stone still.. yah basically it means i feel nothing at the moment.
Skool was extremely bad today! woke up at 7, reach skool for 9 o'clock lab session only to find out that lab is cancelled! its like so very best. the teacher came by, and said he was so sorry that he forgot to announced it last friday during lecture. but he mentioned dat he told a few students.. and till now we're still wondering who's the few students in the cohort that's so extrememly selfish to keep the news to themselves! The stupid thing is, we can't go home coz of the lecture quiz at 3. and from that moment till quiz, we had more den 6 hours to study (-.-"
Erm, i went over to my friends' house just opposite skool loh. Was trying to study there while the rest of them were busy playing with the computer. Oh aniway, tink i didn't do really well for the quiz aso la. By the way, i'm on the road to completion of my biochem project le. haven't been feeling as pissed off as the past few days liao. er.. actually i've got nothing much to say aso le. Oh yah, dis friday is ccn day.. after our lessons that day i will be going FOP with my classmate i tink. Erm join in with their cell group ppl loh..
Skool was extremely bad today! woke up at 7, reach skool for 9 o'clock lab session only to find out that lab is cancelled! its like so very best. the teacher came by, and said he was so sorry that he forgot to announced it last friday during lecture. but he mentioned dat he told a few students.. and till now we're still wondering who's the few students in the cohort that's so extrememly selfish to keep the news to themselves! The stupid thing is, we can't go home coz of the lecture quiz at 3. and from that moment till quiz, we had more den 6 hours to study (-.-"
Erm, i went over to my friends' house just opposite skool loh. Was trying to study there while the rest of them were busy playing with the computer. Oh aniway, tink i didn't do really well for the quiz aso la. By the way, i'm on the road to completion of my biochem project le. haven't been feeling as pissed off as the past few days liao. er.. actually i've got nothing much to say aso le. Oh yah, dis friday is ccn day.. after our lessons that day i will be going FOP with my classmate i tink. Erm join in with their cell group ppl loh..