Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Recently have been another series of events.. both physical and internal waves of challenges, feelings and experiences. Its times like that where I realize that there are still many things out there to learn and get used to.Been facing a period of unstable times since I came back from Taiwan. It seemed to have instantly sapped all the energy that I’ve recharged back from the trip. Dun like the overwhelmed feeling.
Well, the biggest issue on hand should be my job. Took quite some courage and madness to tender my resignation. Actually looking at it I didn’t have much of a choice either. Notified my boss before I even left for Taiwan. They have like sufficient time to get a replacement, but seriously duno whats with them.. they drag, and drag.. and den they say I am not supposed to leave so early coz no one to take over my stuff. Like dumb.
Anyway, earlier on was wondering if I really made the right choice about leaving. Left this tot hanging the day I left for Taiwan. Ok, scary things haunts u.. the moment I’m on the plane back to Singapore, the tot is back. Perhaps considering the damage it’ve done to me over the past few years, its really a wise choice. I just tink that working here is like a black hole. You're sucked into this black hollow vacuum like thing, every struggle and resistance seemed futile.. most importantly, u gain nothing in return. Like wrong.
Oh well, then about happier stuff. I love my travel partners! Ok logically speaking only the two of them. Never expected to have gotten so close to this two people. Never tot this trip would ever be possible. Never tot we would enjoy our time together so much. The two of them are like much younger den me, but communication doesn’t seemed much of a problem. I like the trust we have, the reliance, the care, the entire feeling and atmosphere just being around them is comfortable.
Looking at them taught me many things. I never tot of or needed to take care of people in my life. It never struck me that I’ll so wanna show concern to someone ever. Ok I mean Joanne. Somehow its this very special feeling that bonds us together. Ok I’m not sure about how she feels, but at least for me.. I really wanna treat her as my younger sister. I tink it doesn’t matter if she reciprocates this feeling, I just feel the need to take care of this very special little girl.
Well, not sure if I’m being very selfish to tink and act this way. But I’m not exactly sure what this feeling is also. Sometimes I’ll wonder if this feeling is genuine or is it just simply a habit developed after the trip.. hmmm…
Well, the biggest issue on hand should be my job. Took quite some courage and madness to tender my resignation. Actually looking at it I didn’t have much of a choice either. Notified my boss before I even left for Taiwan. They have like sufficient time to get a replacement, but seriously duno whats with them.. they drag, and drag.. and den they say I am not supposed to leave so early coz no one to take over my stuff. Like dumb.
Anyway, earlier on was wondering if I really made the right choice about leaving. Left this tot hanging the day I left for Taiwan. Ok, scary things haunts u.. the moment I’m on the plane back to Singapore, the tot is back. Perhaps considering the damage it’ve done to me over the past few years, its really a wise choice. I just tink that working here is like a black hole. You're sucked into this black hollow vacuum like thing, every struggle and resistance seemed futile.. most importantly, u gain nothing in return. Like wrong.
Oh well, then about happier stuff. I love my travel partners! Ok logically speaking only the two of them. Never expected to have gotten so close to this two people. Never tot this trip would ever be possible. Never tot we would enjoy our time together so much. The two of them are like much younger den me, but communication doesn’t seemed much of a problem. I like the trust we have, the reliance, the care, the entire feeling and atmosphere just being around them is comfortable.
Looking at them taught me many things. I never tot of or needed to take care of people in my life. It never struck me that I’ll so wanna show concern to someone ever. Ok I mean Joanne. Somehow its this very special feeling that bonds us together. Ok I’m not sure about how she feels, but at least for me.. I really wanna treat her as my younger sister. I tink it doesn’t matter if she reciprocates this feeling, I just feel the need to take care of this very special little girl.
Well, not sure if I’m being very selfish to tink and act this way. But I’m not exactly sure what this feeling is also. Sometimes I’ll wonder if this feeling is genuine or is it just simply a habit developed after the trip.. hmmm…
Saturday, May 08, 2010
不喜欢 讨人厌的自己
不喜欢 软弱的自己
不喜欢 自以为是的自己
不喜欢 优柔寡断的自己
不喜欢 不会体谅人的自己
不喜欢 偏激的自己
不喜欢 想太多的自己
不喜欢 没用的自己
不喜欢 我自己
不喜欢 软弱的自己
不喜欢 自以为是的自己
不喜欢 优柔寡断的自己
不喜欢 不会体谅人的自己
不喜欢 偏激的自己
不喜欢 想太多的自己
不喜欢 没用的自己
不喜欢 我自己