Monday, June 28, 2010
sometimes i really duno how can my mind be so simple yet so complex at the same time.
work have been fun, tiring, stressful, tedious.. not sure what to make out of it. i like my job nature. but den again, perhaps all came too quickly i've yet to adapt to it. and guess my body couldn't quite get used to it too. have been sick for the past 1 week. A weak body, and a tired mental health can no longer meet up to the fast paced job requirements. Therefore i tink i've decided to take a break. This time is gonna be boring, broke and all.. but i tink i still need some time to settle down everythg.
Its been too much for my mind to cope ever since the mission trip. Things come crushing down, piling up higher and higher on me. everytime i tot i've clear away some sediments, the sunshine i see seemed shortlived. Not sure if its really my prob.. maybe it is. Am i really expecting too much? What do i really hope to get in return?
its almost to july. Its been abit more den a month since i've quit and moved on to an uncertain life. Must say i've enjoyed the freedom, the company and the love i've received since. God gave me something i'll really treasure with my life, something that i find is precious to me.. i'm so grateful for it. wells, the future lies uncertain still.. i really do hope that what comes will be more encouraging than destructive..
work have been fun, tiring, stressful, tedious.. not sure what to make out of it. i like my job nature. but den again, perhaps all came too quickly i've yet to adapt to it. and guess my body couldn't quite get used to it too. have been sick for the past 1 week. A weak body, and a tired mental health can no longer meet up to the fast paced job requirements. Therefore i tink i've decided to take a break. This time is gonna be boring, broke and all.. but i tink i still need some time to settle down everythg.
Its been too much for my mind to cope ever since the mission trip. Things come crushing down, piling up higher and higher on me. everytime i tot i've clear away some sediments, the sunshine i see seemed shortlived. Not sure if its really my prob.. maybe it is. Am i really expecting too much? What do i really hope to get in return?
its almost to july. Its been abit more den a month since i've quit and moved on to an uncertain life. Must say i've enjoyed the freedom, the company and the love i've received since. God gave me something i'll really treasure with my life, something that i find is precious to me.. i'm so grateful for it. wells, the future lies uncertain still.. i really do hope that what comes will be more encouraging than destructive..
Thursday, June 17, 2010
work is gonna make me fat. and i really mean Fat.
Freelancing - or so called - at SPH right now. No freedom or flexibility i've very much expected. more like the rigidity of the entire system. or is it the individuals? seriously i duno.
Writing on stuff bout food, lots of them. u get to eat at every location u go to. the ppl are more den willing to feed u >.<
hmm, its super tiring since day one. everyday there'll be stuff thrown randomly at you. i mean i'll appreciate it if you'll explain stuff before having high expectations. Anyway, they really tink i'm pro. so maybe shouldn't call this position freelance if it was intended to make u work like a full timer.
Anyway had a very eventful night. i dun quite wish to recall wat happened. My head hurts super badly now. i tot gastric alone was bad enuff.. it lasted for almost a week liao..and still not feeling exactly fine. Oh gosh.. no mood no mood no mood. I shouldn't have any expectations.
Freelancing - or so called - at SPH right now. No freedom or flexibility i've very much expected. more like the rigidity of the entire system. or is it the individuals? seriously i duno.
Writing on stuff bout food, lots of them. u get to eat at every location u go to. the ppl are more den willing to feed u >.<
hmm, its super tiring since day one. everyday there'll be stuff thrown randomly at you. i mean i'll appreciate it if you'll explain stuff before having high expectations. Anyway, they really tink i'm pro. so maybe shouldn't call this position freelance if it was intended to make u work like a full timer.
Anyway had a very eventful night. i dun quite wish to recall wat happened. My head hurts super badly now. i tot gastric alone was bad enuff.. it lasted for almost a week liao..and still not feeling exactly fine. Oh gosh.. no mood no mood no mood. I shouldn't have any expectations.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Its Snowy's 14th bday!! Happy birthday~~! XD
Its been a year again. pretty smooth year i should say..
though obvious that she's getting so much older.
This year apart from her eye prob,
there's the worsening incontinence problem..
and of course the weakening of her back legs.
All in a year.
How quick one's health can deteriorate in old age. hmm..
Its been a year again. pretty smooth year i should say..
though obvious that she's getting so much older.
This year apart from her eye prob,
there's the worsening incontinence problem..
and of course the weakening of her back legs.
All in a year.
How quick one's health can deteriorate in old age. hmm..
Thursday, June 10, 2010
sometimes i wonder what have i been doing.. or wat am i doing or intend to do. Its just an interphase isn't it..? why does it all seems so wrong? recently so many things happened. so complex tat i can't really make out how to adjust myself to cope with all. just feel like nothing i do is right.. must have some implications somewhere.
Just can't prevent myself from tinking towards the negative side. it always happen. den the more i tink, the worse i feel..so not wise.
how can things ever be made right? maybe it never will.
Just can't prevent myself from tinking towards the negative side. it always happen. den the more i tink, the worse i feel..so not wise.
how can things ever be made right? maybe it never will.