Friday, December 21, 2007
Wonder is it me or wat.. everytime till the end of the year will start to tink alot~ den the more i tink, the surge of feelings will overwhelm me quite abit. year after year events passes just like that.. life goes on.. i just wish that at least there's one thing every year thats significant enough for me to remember.
Oh well, its the festive season now.. i must admit that the christmas this year is very different for me. physically the events that i'm going through is different, and in a way or another they impact me spiritually too. well, for many many years i haven't been receiving so many christmas presents le.. ok define: many=more den 3.. yeah my standard lower la. hmm i'm not sure why, but i see the ppl in the office all busy giving presents and preparing party and all.. i somehow wonder if that is all wat christmas meant to them.
anyway.. i am really tired la. almost everyday stay for overtime.. yet the pile of work to be done is never ending. guess its just i do too slowly ba. a few times work get so depressing i feel like giving up, but somehow i decide to move on. not that i'm feeling more positive or wat.. just that my life is bad enough, and i can't afford to make it worse by giving up. well, some feelings and stuff can't be explained.. not like you can use words to express it fully de.
lastly, i guess i should convince myself to stop dreaming. dreams will always remain dreams.. doubt they ever will come true. the joy that the hopes bring will often be shortlived. how practical and cruel is reality...
Oh well, its the festive season now.. i must admit that the christmas this year is very different for me. physically the events that i'm going through is different, and in a way or another they impact me spiritually too. well, for many many years i haven't been receiving so many christmas presents le.. ok define: many=more den 3.. yeah my standard lower la. hmm i'm not sure why, but i see the ppl in the office all busy giving presents and preparing party and all.. i somehow wonder if that is all wat christmas meant to them.
anyway.. i am really tired la. almost everyday stay for overtime.. yet the pile of work to be done is never ending. guess its just i do too slowly ba. a few times work get so depressing i feel like giving up, but somehow i decide to move on. not that i'm feeling more positive or wat.. just that my life is bad enough, and i can't afford to make it worse by giving up. well, some feelings and stuff can't be explained.. not like you can use words to express it fully de.
lastly, i guess i should convince myself to stop dreaming. dreams will always remain dreams.. doubt they ever will come true. the joy that the hopes bring will often be shortlived. how practical and cruel is reality...