Sunday, November 29, 2009
Confidence is something that has been constantly missing in my life.. tink it really is the crucial point to note. Trying to find a balance in life recently. somehow i tink i've been overwhelmed by stuff that i've lost sight of the ultimate goal, lost the focus to bring myself out of the circumstances tying me down.
When you realise there's actually so much out there that you want to accomplish, but even working hard and focus and perseverence can also get you no where near.. Den you start to question yourself that what's all this effort for? pressing on isn't even an issue now.. maybe waking up does. wouldn't it be much simpler to just let go of it all? but i guess its emotions holding me back, afterall its once so important in my life. some things is just easier said den done.
Hmm, anyway have been switching back to shoes this two days. my broken little toe dun feel broken anymore i guess, and i'm quite sure it should have recovered. Its just the gettign used part, for months there have been precaution taken to walk and do stuff, just to avoid hurting the toe.. now mentally i still can't tune back so quickly. first day wearing shoe was super uncomfortable.. as if i couldn't quite walk normally. Anyway, it shouldn't be too difficult to go back to normal.. i hope~
When you realise there's actually so much out there that you want to accomplish, but even working hard and focus and perseverence can also get you no where near.. Den you start to question yourself that what's all this effort for? pressing on isn't even an issue now.. maybe waking up does. wouldn't it be much simpler to just let go of it all? but i guess its emotions holding me back, afterall its once so important in my life. some things is just easier said den done.
Hmm, anyway have been switching back to shoes this two days. my broken little toe dun feel broken anymore i guess, and i'm quite sure it should have recovered. Its just the gettign used part, for months there have been precaution taken to walk and do stuff, just to avoid hurting the toe.. now mentally i still can't tune back so quickly. first day wearing shoe was super uncomfortable.. as if i couldn't quite walk normally. Anyway, it shouldn't be too difficult to go back to normal.. i hope~
Thursday, November 12, 2009
I feel like I am lacking in many things recently…
Lack in will to work
Lack in perseverance in face of challenges
Lack in wisdom for decisions
Lack in strength for daily chores
Lack in joy of living
Lack in confidence in myself
Lack in courage for the future
Lack in hope to carry on..
Let’s see what else I am lacking in this lacking list…
Lack of words to use =X
Despite all these shortfalls, life still goes on..
sometimes light can still be spotted somewhere along the tunnel.
I’ve never tot of myself as being 'the smart kid' before.. though i am quite smart sometimes haa!
Well, its usually me tinking how wonderful others are...
Now I know, it’s really all a matter of perspective.
Why challenge others when we have yet to even surpass ourselves?
Lack in will to work
Lack in perseverance in face of challenges
Lack in wisdom for decisions
Lack in strength for daily chores
Lack in joy of living
Lack in confidence in myself
Lack in courage for the future
Lack in hope to carry on..
Let’s see what else I am lacking in this lacking list…
Lack of words to use =X
Despite all these shortfalls, life still goes on..
sometimes light can still be spotted somewhere along the tunnel.
I’ve never tot of myself as being 'the smart kid' before.. though i am quite smart sometimes haa!
Well, its usually me tinking how wonderful others are...
Now I know, it’s really all a matter of perspective.
Why challenge others when we have yet to even surpass ourselves?
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
i am soo gonna rest tonight, and simply do not bother about all the piling assignments! freakingly tired can! My mind usually can't seems to function much after coming back from classes.. same for tonight, so might as well just rest for the very last time. and from tomolo onwards, i can predict that sleep will be ranked like last again.. =.=
it was really funny in class just now. we smoked the teacher.. pester and nag and make alot of noise about our assignment deadline that he finally gave in! the power of unity haha!
me: So.. is there an extension for this assignment?
cher: No no no.. you tink wat.. market ar. buy fish, meat and vegetables ar..
X: but we got not enough time!
cher: dun argue with me, the aust students also get same amnt of time, fair wat..
me: not fair lo.. they are full timers, we are working.. and.. we're negotiating, never argue wat.
cher: you ppl, really asking too much.. let me tink wats the best alternative *tinks*
while he tinks..
everyone mumbles (sarcastically): wa work so tiring lo.. aust students better hor.. the teacher so heartless.. must take off liao.. aiyah no time to do lo.. #$^2&*%5$%!
cher: oi oi oi.. this bunch of ppl..really~~ *pause* tsk...you ppl must really thank me leh. aiyo a bunch of.. *point at us + funny facial expression*
Y: so wats the conclusion..
cher: ok la.. extend to friday before 6pm. no late submission..
Z: cannot leh, got work!
cher: no no no more.. dun try to persuade me anymore..
me: wa later we get sacked because of the assignment hor~
cher: aiyo.. 'si gin na' leh.. OK OK.. 7pm.. can?
everyone: No problem~~~
cher: if i ever lose my job becoz of you all ar.. *drama*
This teacher is always super strict.. die also never wanna give extension. Plus he is one super super super drama guy.. loads of very very drama reaction and phrases.. extremely funny half the time. He's very open minded with words, to the extend of vulgarities plus censored topics haha.. well, never knew that we actually can succeed in digging our way through to an extension hahaha! Joker~ he lost! wahaa..
it was really funny in class just now. we smoked the teacher.. pester and nag and make alot of noise about our assignment deadline that he finally gave in! the power of unity haha!
me: So.. is there an extension for this assignment?
cher: No no no.. you tink wat.. market ar. buy fish, meat and vegetables ar..
X: but we got not enough time!
cher: dun argue with me, the aust students also get same amnt of time, fair wat..
me: not fair lo.. they are full timers, we are working.. and.. we're negotiating, never argue wat.
cher: you ppl, really asking too much.. let me tink wats the best alternative *tinks*
while he tinks..
everyone mumbles (sarcastically): wa work so tiring lo.. aust students better hor.. the teacher so heartless.. must take off liao.. aiyah no time to do lo.. #$^2&*%5$%!
cher: oi oi oi.. this bunch of ppl..really~~ *pause* tsk...you ppl must really thank me leh. aiyo a bunch of.. *point at us + funny facial expression*
Y: so wats the conclusion..
cher: ok la.. extend to friday before 6pm. no late submission..
Z: cannot leh, got work!
cher: no no no more.. dun try to persuade me anymore..
me: wa later we get sacked because of the assignment hor~
cher: aiyo.. 'si gin na' leh.. OK OK.. 7pm.. can?
everyone: No problem~~~
cher: if i ever lose my job becoz of you all ar.. *drama*
This teacher is always super strict.. die also never wanna give extension. Plus he is one super super super drama guy.. loads of very very drama reaction and phrases.. extremely funny half the time. He's very open minded with words, to the extend of vulgarities plus censored topics haha.. well, never knew that we actually can succeed in digging our way through to an extension hahaha! Joker~ he lost! wahaa..