Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Recent area of tots revolves around the word – responsibility.
Somehow i’ve learnt to live with it whether I like it or not. It feels like responsibility is somethg to restrict you, somethg imposed upon you by others more den your own will. Becoz of this ‘responsibility’.. at work, we do our best to finish the job..maybe even more; at home, you behave and fulfill the role of being a typical ‘parents’ kid’; at skool, you act like a student; The rest of the time, you’re expected to fulfill the role of a person called friend. It seems like life is all about fulfilling responsibilities and living up to these expectations of others. Does making up to the mark of my responsibilities make me who I really am? When actions and roles are already predetermined as ‘good’ and ‘bad’.. it seems like behaving as you are might be seen as deviant or rebellious.
I wonder who I really am sometimes.
Work has been really sick. My boss stuff extra stuff to me.. as usual he’ll go one big round trying to justify his actions. Actually it doesn’t make a difference, coz he dun have to justify what.. as if I can choose not to do like that. Den there’s this colleague doing sales de, he’s usually away on business trips 90% of the time. but that 10% while he is in office is starting to irritate us le. He is the typical ambitious kind. Shoot everyone else just to save his own ass. The thing he did that had since changed my opinion of him.. one fine day, he sent an email telling me some trivial work stuff and attached to like sooo many people including overseas office ppl, and best thg is he sits right in front of me. Just to tell people he got do his job, he send email attempt to shoot me lo. Lucky I got my bullet proof vest always ready.. tink he just made a fool of himself. Trying to step on others while climbing up the corporate ladder is such a disgraceful action.. who knows when he’ll end up falling really badly.
Anyway, having a bad bad headache since yesterday morning. It doesn’t feel like it’ll get any better today. But since the irritating aunty not around this two days, life is much bearable at work. And I am glad its skool holidays! Waiting for results now.. wonder when it’ll be out lo. Once again.. life without skool is so relaxing.. haha..
Somehow i’ve learnt to live with it whether I like it or not. It feels like responsibility is somethg to restrict you, somethg imposed upon you by others more den your own will. Becoz of this ‘responsibility’.. at work, we do our best to finish the job..maybe even more; at home, you behave and fulfill the role of being a typical ‘parents’ kid’; at skool, you act like a student; The rest of the time, you’re expected to fulfill the role of a person called friend. It seems like life is all about fulfilling responsibilities and living up to these expectations of others. Does making up to the mark of my responsibilities make me who I really am? When actions and roles are already predetermined as ‘good’ and ‘bad’.. it seems like behaving as you are might be seen as deviant or rebellious.
I wonder who I really am sometimes.
Work has been really sick. My boss stuff extra stuff to me.. as usual he’ll go one big round trying to justify his actions. Actually it doesn’t make a difference, coz he dun have to justify what.. as if I can choose not to do like that. Den there’s this colleague doing sales de, he’s usually away on business trips 90% of the time. but that 10% while he is in office is starting to irritate us le. He is the typical ambitious kind. Shoot everyone else just to save his own ass. The thing he did that had since changed my opinion of him.. one fine day, he sent an email telling me some trivial work stuff and attached to like sooo many people including overseas office ppl, and best thg is he sits right in front of me. Just to tell people he got do his job, he send email attempt to shoot me lo. Lucky I got my bullet proof vest always ready.. tink he just made a fool of himself. Trying to step on others while climbing up the corporate ladder is such a disgraceful action.. who knows when he’ll end up falling really badly.
Anyway, having a bad bad headache since yesterday morning. It doesn’t feel like it’ll get any better today. But since the irritating aunty not around this two days, life is much bearable at work. And I am glad its skool holidays! Waiting for results now.. wonder when it’ll be out lo. Once again.. life without skool is so relaxing.. haha..