Thursday, January 17, 2008
my mind feels so clogged up now. loads of stuff inside..so many things to be done, so many things i wanna do.. but somehow i just feel so tired i dun wanna do anything but just rest. work have been getting better compared to the past few weeks. though its still hectic, but at least i'm not to the extend of suffocating already.
the more i work there, the more i feel i am out of place.. i dun mean physically, but the frequency is just not right. can crap around with them no problem, but can feel that i am adjusting myself to a frequency i am not very comfortable at.. or should i say adjusting myself to somehow not myself. arg i can't explain.
well, unofficially rejected the queensland uni.'s offer.. now i am without a course to study. recently found a private skool that offers aust degrees.. and its quite near my work place. seriously quite tempted to enrol in that, but i am not sure if i am ready to take on such a great challenge, 3 times a week of night lessons. oh well, can't tink so much le.. head is starting to ache liao..
i am looking forward to cny! the long holidays.. haha! and i wanna go overseas tour la.. i hate doing ot every day!!!
the more i work there, the more i feel i am out of place.. i dun mean physically, but the frequency is just not right. can crap around with them no problem, but can feel that i am adjusting myself to a frequency i am not very comfortable at.. or should i say adjusting myself to somehow not myself. arg i can't explain.
well, unofficially rejected the queensland uni.'s offer.. now i am without a course to study. recently found a private skool that offers aust degrees.. and its quite near my work place. seriously quite tempted to enrol in that, but i am not sure if i am ready to take on such a great challenge, 3 times a week of night lessons. oh well, can't tink so much le.. head is starting to ache liao..
i am looking forward to cny! the long holidays.. haha! and i wanna go overseas tour la.. i hate doing ot every day!!!
Saturday, January 05, 2008
its a brand new year! had a very simple way to start the year 2008. aniway this few days had been so tiring.. though just had a long break from work, but the load was extra when it all started again. things won't get any better for the coming week i guess.
well, yesterday the news of the death of 'mc king' came as a shock. just as shocking as the death of leslie cheung, but its different this time. at least he didn't end his own life. anyway, the same day yesterday..my mum fell at work. she was saying she's lucky she didn't die from the fall. All this suddenly made me realise how near death is to us, and that we really are vunerable. suddenly i felt glad to be a christian, at least i know where i'll be after death.. at the same time i felt this burden for my family and friends who have yet to know christ.
well, there's too many things to worry for recently. some problems have been there for a long long time, yet nothing can be done to solve it. some problems will always be there as long as i dun attempt to change my perceptive towards things. too many things.. i just wanna empty my mind and rest...
well, yesterday the news of the death of 'mc king' came as a shock. just as shocking as the death of leslie cheung, but its different this time. at least he didn't end his own life. anyway, the same day yesterday..my mum fell at work. she was saying she's lucky she didn't die from the fall. All this suddenly made me realise how near death is to us, and that we really are vunerable. suddenly i felt glad to be a christian, at least i know where i'll be after death.. at the same time i felt this burden for my family and friends who have yet to know christ.
well, there's too many things to worry for recently. some problems have been there for a long long time, yet nothing can be done to solve it. some problems will always be there as long as i dun attempt to change my perceptive towards things. too many things.. i just wanna empty my mind and rest...