Saturday, February 17, 2007
why do i have a feeling that this is gonna be a really bad new year..so far from all that's happening to me and around me.. nothing have been smooth sailing and fine one loh. i dun this feeling. entering into a new lunar year like that is really sad.
went to school for poster presentation today. i really give up hope on major project and SIP le. just wanna finish presenting and get over and done with it. i tried to avoid toking bout this issue to my CP also lo. he seems to have clean forgotten bout it.. but before i left, he told me he'll try to go find out for me. i didn't feel anything when he said that, coz i already totally sian diao le. he's suppose to find out for me since monday lo. till now he still duno anything already rather hopeless le. well, i saw the marks for the appraisal section, confirm fail le. great~
i didn't tell me parents bout it. actually wanted to let them know one.. but i dun seems to know how to start. den i realise that they seems to have more stuff to worry for themselves. guess i shouldn't make things worse. anyway it won't help even if they knows. shall try to make it a happy new year still. have to look happy and be happy. how i wish all this is just a nightmare.. someone wake me up from this dream~~
yeah and whoever reads this post and the previous one.. pls keep everything to yourselves. do NOT share or discuss with anyone else k. i really need an outlet to my feelings.. if not i won't wanna post it here too..
went to school for poster presentation today. i really give up hope on major project and SIP le. just wanna finish presenting and get over and done with it. i tried to avoid toking bout this issue to my CP also lo. he seems to have clean forgotten bout it.. but before i left, he told me he'll try to go find out for me. i didn't feel anything when he said that, coz i already totally sian diao le. he's suppose to find out for me since monday lo. till now he still duno anything already rather hopeless le. well, i saw the marks for the appraisal section, confirm fail le. great~
i didn't tell me parents bout it. actually wanted to let them know one.. but i dun seems to know how to start. den i realise that they seems to have more stuff to worry for themselves. guess i shouldn't make things worse. anyway it won't help even if they knows. shall try to make it a happy new year still. have to look happy and be happy. how i wish all this is just a nightmare.. someone wake me up from this dream~~
yeah and whoever reads this post and the previous one.. pls keep everything to yourselves. do NOT share or discuss with anyone else k. i really need an outlet to my feelings.. if not i won't wanna post it here too..
Friday, February 16, 2007
today i had quite a new and interesting experience at the home team career center. went for the police assessment. spent the whole day there, from morning 8am to 5plus pm la. eh, totaly round 50 ppl there only.. and total only 4 girls! including me~ well, the other 3 girls rather frenly la.. and we got chat among ourselves. the best part is they all chat in malay = . = like thanks man..i dun understand at all can. mostly malays there la..even guys also mostly malays. eh, the super alot of buffer time.. those endless waiting. den we had 3 hr lunch lo. slack till mad.
aniway, just verify all the documentations, eyesight test and physical assessment. den the last part is the most stressful de. the physcometric test. real physco de.. super alot of questions! lucky i had expereience of sitting for the SAT paper. cause it really feels like SAT loh.. just that its a wider range. got DISC test included also i guess. aniway took bout 2 hours to finish up everything. oh.. i duno if i'll regret making the decision to go straight into the specialised unit lo. i chose dog unit. they say if really get in then i'll be stuck in there forever. as in it'll be hard to transfer to another unit liao. i was still tinking can do forensic stuff in the police or in HSA de lah. well watever man..now also duno they wan me not. cause got to wait for letter for second interview if successful.
well..many things happened end of last week till this week. all thanks to the stupid vet from the clinic. it started with them wanting back the uniform. the vet called and demanded back the stupid shirt, she sounded like i'm out to rob them off their uniform like that. and she super impolite for sure la, like i die also have to make it down to return them in 2 days time. she say by monday must return. den monday early morning only she call my teacher to complain and crap le! like hello.. the world dun revolve around you lo!! den my teacher called me.. and i asked him bout my SIP appraisal form. that's when the terror begins..
i never expected the appraisal to be good seriously. cause i knew she didn't like me and didn't trust me right from the beginning. but all over le so i dun care. den apparantly i heard from my teacher is that they failed my appraisal loh. i duno wat the heck measure she used, apparantly she's without conscience. So if my appraisal really fail, from TP's wonderful management, they say means fail the whole SIP. How Great! stay back one year just to wait to retake another SIP? i called my care-person to checked. my CP duno a single thing. he said he'll check, but its been 3 days and i didn't hear from him. i already take it very easy le.. if final thing really fail i'll just quit school. i dun wanna wait a year to take another poosibly-lousy-and-sucky SIP again.
oh well, tomolo still have to go back school to present the poster for the major project lo. i totally no mood to finish the poster proper lo. lucky snice monday i more or less finish le, den my fren help me go print it. i totally dun see the point in continuing to do the major project. totally sian diaoz. i really never detest a person that much before loh. hating someone is really tiring, but she really sucks. and why must she say she's a christian? she realy make me feel that christians are nothing but a bunch of hypocrites..
aniway, just verify all the documentations, eyesight test and physical assessment. den the last part is the most stressful de. the physcometric test. real physco de.. super alot of questions! lucky i had expereience of sitting for the SAT paper. cause it really feels like SAT loh.. just that its a wider range. got DISC test included also i guess. aniway took bout 2 hours to finish up everything. oh.. i duno if i'll regret making the decision to go straight into the specialised unit lo. i chose dog unit. they say if really get in then i'll be stuck in there forever. as in it'll be hard to transfer to another unit liao. i was still tinking can do forensic stuff in the police or in HSA de lah. well watever man..now also duno they wan me not. cause got to wait for letter for second interview if successful.
well..many things happened end of last week till this week. all thanks to the stupid vet from the clinic. it started with them wanting back the uniform. the vet called and demanded back the stupid shirt, she sounded like i'm out to rob them off their uniform like that. and she super impolite for sure la, like i die also have to make it down to return them in 2 days time. she say by monday must return. den monday early morning only she call my teacher to complain and crap le! like hello.. the world dun revolve around you lo!! den my teacher called me.. and i asked him bout my SIP appraisal form. that's when the terror begins..
i never expected the appraisal to be good seriously. cause i knew she didn't like me and didn't trust me right from the beginning. but all over le so i dun care. den apparantly i heard from my teacher is that they failed my appraisal loh. i duno wat the heck measure she used, apparantly she's without conscience. So if my appraisal really fail, from TP's wonderful management, they say means fail the whole SIP. How Great! stay back one year just to wait to retake another SIP? i called my care-person to checked. my CP duno a single thing. he said he'll check, but its been 3 days and i didn't hear from him. i already take it very easy le.. if final thing really fail i'll just quit school. i dun wanna wait a year to take another poosibly-lousy-and-sucky SIP again.
oh well, tomolo still have to go back school to present the poster for the major project lo. i totally no mood to finish the poster proper lo. lucky snice monday i more or less finish le, den my fren help me go print it. i totally dun see the point in continuing to do the major project. totally sian diaoz. i really never detest a person that much before loh. hating someone is really tiring, but she really sucks. and why must she say she's a christian? she realy make me feel that christians are nothing but a bunch of hypocrites..
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
handed up my major project report today~~!! its like crossing the second hurdle le! perserve.. one last lap to go.. Guess i'm still in a dilemma ba. after all the projects and stuff.. Wats Next? super lost..
well, frens are the greatest gift you can ever get.. thats wat i feel at least. together we double the happiness and halved the sorrows and trouble. but somehow.. sharing each others problem is not as easy as we can put it. you'll feel for the person, yet there's nothing you can do to help, nothing you can say either. aniway, starting to realise things that happen around me seems to be going all wrong. i still can't figure out wat situation exactly i'm getting myself into, much less try anything to salvage the situations.
people~ i just wanna say.. i am more den willing to share all the troubles and all. but please dun be disappointed when you expect help but i can't provide any. i guess the least i can do is to provide a listening channel ya?
well, frens are the greatest gift you can ever get.. thats wat i feel at least. together we double the happiness and halved the sorrows and trouble. but somehow.. sharing each others problem is not as easy as we can put it. you'll feel for the person, yet there's nothing you can do to help, nothing you can say either. aniway, starting to realise things that happen around me seems to be going all wrong. i still can't figure out wat situation exactly i'm getting myself into, much less try anything to salvage the situations.
people~ i just wanna say.. i am more den willing to share all the troubles and all. but please dun be disappointed when you expect help but i can't provide any. i guess the least i can do is to provide a listening channel ya?