Sunday, July 31, 2005
Have been sooo occupied by my biochem project dis few days.. couldn't find time to come online, felt i missed out alot. well, that project doesn't seems to end one eh..got so much to do! 5 person in the group..but everything i do~! wah i'm hardworking eh *claps*..haha..
Well, came back from church today.. felt quite lost i guess. there's a feeling i can't really express. eh put it dis way.. last time going to church is so being looked forward to, there's fellowship.. and u can truely worship and draw near to god. Somehow i don't get the same feeling now. going to church seemed like a routine.. and there isn't any relationship to tok about, not to even mention fellowship. tried quite hard to focus myself to worship, but really not possible. Guess its time to consider changing a new environment..
oh well, i'm so totally sianz now.. have to get back to the project soon. exams are just round the corner! ..and my grades had broken the lowest record ever. suppose to do well in poly one wor.. duno wats wrong with me also.. *Roars*
Well, came back from church today.. felt quite lost i guess. there's a feeling i can't really express. eh put it dis way.. last time going to church is so being looked forward to, there's fellowship.. and u can truely worship and draw near to god. Somehow i don't get the same feeling now. going to church seemed like a routine.. and there isn't any relationship to tok about, not to even mention fellowship. tried quite hard to focus myself to worship, but really not possible. Guess its time to consider changing a new environment..
oh well, i'm so totally sianz now.. have to get back to the project soon. exams are just round the corner! ..and my grades had broken the lowest record ever. suppose to do well in poly one wor.. duno wats wrong with me also.. *Roars*
Saturday, July 23, 2005
wah sianz.. can't seems to put up pictures wor. can you ppl see the pics?
aniway, i just finishing watching a french movie..yamakasi. aiyah its for my sociology project one la, wasn't interested in this movie when my group member chose it. the reason i watched three times was because i had to pick out points from the show,and aso.. coz the movie was very interesting la. But, the main reson i watched it so many times was because of dis guy in the show..haha, extra handsome! he looks oriental, but too bad he speaks french.. and i dun understand wats he's saying. eh..just looking at him enough le.. all the stunts he do, and his looks.. woah~!! *drooling*
Oh, and i just received an email from the ndp organisers. my entry for the snapshot contest was selected as one of the top 3~! unbelievable. it was out of sheer boredom that i decide to send in one of the pic in my comp, never did i expected it to get all the way into the top three. erm, got myself a nokia phone, and aso three pairs of ndp tickets to the parade at padang on 9th Aug. well, its not so much bout the tix.. but a new phone! though not some new model, and aso not much features, but its free.. and it was an unexpected gift. like drop from the sky like dat~! god bless eh! wow.. now i have to tink of how i would go all the way to jurong to collect my prizes.. (-.-"
aniway, i just finishing watching a french movie..yamakasi. aiyah its for my sociology project one la, wasn't interested in this movie when my group member chose it. the reason i watched three times was because i had to pick out points from the show,and aso.. coz the movie was very interesting la. But, the main reson i watched it so many times was because of dis guy in the show..haha, extra handsome! he looks oriental, but too bad he speaks french.. and i dun understand wats he's saying. eh..just looking at him enough le.. all the stunts he do, and his looks.. woah~!! *drooling*
Oh, and i just received an email from the ndp organisers. my entry for the snapshot contest was selected as one of the top 3~! unbelievable. it was out of sheer boredom that i decide to send in one of the pic in my comp, never did i expected it to get all the way into the top three. erm, got myself a nokia phone, and aso three pairs of ndp tickets to the parade at padang on 9th Aug. well, its not so much bout the tix.. but a new phone! though not some new model, and aso not much features, but its free.. and it was an unexpected gift. like drop from the sky like dat~! god bless eh! wow.. now i have to tink of how i would go all the way to jurong to collect my prizes.. (-.-"
Friday, July 22, 2005
Headache.headache.headache.headache.
haven't been myself recently.. couldn't control my emotions.. or do have i still have emotions?
i feel like a stone.
stress? depression? hormonal changes? mental problem? posessed?.. don't wan to try reasoning it out.
aniway, i've decided to get out of my own world abit. in the next few days i shall do some link up to other's blog. and hopefully can make some changes to my present blog.
haven't been myself recently.. couldn't control my emotions.. or do have i still have emotions?
i feel like a stone.
stress? depression? hormonal changes? mental problem? posessed?.. don't wan to try reasoning it out.
aniway, i've decided to get out of my own world abit. in the next few days i shall do some link up to other's blog. and hopefully can make some changes to my present blog.
有些事做了就是做了，不可能当它没有发生过。
有些话说了就是说了，想收也收不回。
之前的那种感觉，似乎再也找不回来了。
时间只能冲淡记忆，它无法改变历史。
这几天情绪还蛮低落的.. 可能是受天气影响吧..
有些话说了就是说了，想收也收不回。
之前的那种感觉，似乎再也找不回来了。
时间只能冲淡记忆，它无法改变历史。
这几天情绪还蛮低落的.. 可能是受天气影响吧..
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
i'm in my skool comp lab now~feeling real sianz! got to wait to go for my next lesson la. Well, have been feeling quite down ever since skool reopen. there seems to be an endless pile of work haunting me.. den the results of my term test aso not up to my expectation. to make all these worse, one of my classmate is getting on my nerves!!
arh, life have been thrown off track la. feeling so mentally drained and extra tired~! oh, attended a tok for furthering education overseas just now. it cost like $20000 per semester to study science courses in australia loh. thats like excluding expenses! wah stress sia.. dats alot of money.
Aniway, feeling very brain dead now..can't process any information le. shall slack awhile more before going for lesson liaoz.. (-.-"
arh, life have been thrown off track la. feeling so mentally drained and extra tired~! oh, attended a tok for furthering education overseas just now. it cost like $20000 per semester to study science courses in australia loh. thats like excluding expenses! wah stress sia.. dats alot of money.
Aniway, feeling very brain dead now..can't process any information le. shall slack awhile more before going for lesson liaoz.. (-.-"
Friday, July 15, 2005
Roar~ tired! made a trip down to the vet earlier this morning. it wasn't very crowded there.. and as usual la, snowy treat the place like her house loh.. walk around the place, attempting to enter every room. Hmm, the previous vet wasn't around, and the one who attended to snowy was a chinese female vet la. well, did both the liver scan and the urine test.. today it seems quite easy to draw blood snowy la, coz they didn't take really long.. and they didn't make a mess on snowy la. But waited really long for the results of the test loh. we see people come and go.. and its still not ready.
Aniway, guess its worth the wait la. coz results show that snowy's liver function is back to normal.. But, her nrinal tract stones have returned~! luckily those stones are still considered small and in small amounts. Don't have to pay special attention to it yet. Oh, and snowy is starting to develop cataracts in both her eyes..*faintz* There's nothing we can do to remove it except for surgury(which cost $3000+++).. eh, the vet gave some eye drop to try to delay the formation la.. will have to depend le loh. And, to make it worse.. the vet say, snowy's skin is pink becoz she's born with sensitive skin. today one check up cost like $150++, nearly fainted...
Argh.. guess i have to face the fact that my dear doggie is indeed poorer in health than others. Well, its like through her poor health that i have to give her more attention and care. she's really like a little princess loh, so vulnerable.. Looking at her gives me more determination to try for a veteranian degree..
Well, so much bout snowy.. tok bout yesterday..heehee. my entire day was like spent in kbox. meet peizhi, jingzhi, huiyu and chin.. den we went in late lah. the slot starts at 2.. and suppose to end at 7. but we reach like round 2.30.. Eh, we were enjoying ourselves eating the titbits and ordering the drinks..haha. Den we were like singing non stop loh. Even to a point of making a fool of ourselves. eh, we sang all the way till around 8 den the staff came in with our bill. but aniway, after we paid.. we Continue to sing~! Haha..we were waiting for them to chase us out.. and seriously none of them bothered bout us!! they just let us continue to sing in there! the best thing is they are still so polite and nice to us loh.. we decide that we're not leaving till they drive us off.
Den we really tried every way of entertaining ourselves, even things like jumping on the chair and shouting into the mic and crap. oh we did a mini charity show too..haha~! by the time we finish singing those songs like twice.. we're extra tired le, Still, they never come and drive us out wor. we came to a point that we felt quite paiseh, and so very sianz of singing.. And we decide to leave on our own. the time was 9 plus almost to 10. goodness, i couldn't believe we spent so long in the little room. Haha..guess more people would have been more fun~!
Hmm, suppose to clear up my work by today one.. but i'm like so tired le. don't feel like don't anything now..
Aniway, guess its worth the wait la. coz results show that snowy's liver function is back to normal.. But, her nrinal tract stones have returned~! luckily those stones are still considered small and in small amounts. Don't have to pay special attention to it yet. Oh, and snowy is starting to develop cataracts in both her eyes..*faintz* There's nothing we can do to remove it except for surgury(which cost $3000+++).. eh, the vet gave some eye drop to try to delay the formation la.. will have to depend le loh. And, to make it worse.. the vet say, snowy's skin is pink becoz she's born with sensitive skin. today one check up cost like $150++, nearly fainted...
Argh.. guess i have to face the fact that my dear doggie is indeed poorer in health than others. Well, its like through her poor health that i have to give her more attention and care. she's really like a little princess loh, so vulnerable.. Looking at her gives me more determination to try for a veteranian degree..
Well, so much bout snowy.. tok bout yesterday..heehee. my entire day was like spent in kbox. meet peizhi, jingzhi, huiyu and chin.. den we went in late lah. the slot starts at 2.. and suppose to end at 7. but we reach like round 2.30.. Eh, we were enjoying ourselves eating the titbits and ordering the drinks..haha. Den we were like singing non stop loh. Even to a point of making a fool of ourselves. eh, we sang all the way till around 8 den the staff came in with our bill. but aniway, after we paid.. we Continue to sing~! Haha..we were waiting for them to chase us out.. and seriously none of them bothered bout us!! they just let us continue to sing in there! the best thing is they are still so polite and nice to us loh.. we decide that we're not leaving till they drive us off.
Den we really tried every way of entertaining ourselves, even things like jumping on the chair and shouting into the mic and crap. oh we did a mini charity show too..haha~! by the time we finish singing those songs like twice.. we're extra tired le, Still, they never come and drive us out wor. we came to a point that we felt quite paiseh, and so very sianz of singing.. And we decide to leave on our own. the time was 9 plus almost to 10. goodness, i couldn't believe we spent so long in the little room. Haha..guess more people would have been more fun~!
Hmm, suppose to clear up my work by today one.. but i'm like so tired le. don't feel like don't anything now..
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Hmm.. 3rd day of my holiday week. haven't yet accomplish anything at all. Well, have been resting abit too much this few days.. realise the pile of work that is suppose to be done by skool reopen. oh well, have been coughing since like two weeks ago.. but don't seems to be getting any better. Haha but still, that doesn't deter me from eating cold stuff like.. ice-creams~!
Oh.. i went around looking for a new blog skin, but couldn't find one dat suit me loh. Guess i'm just fated to stick to this one.. its not that bad rite?! *i don't care even if its bad* haha.. Hm, trying to start reading the da vinci code by dan brown.. but abit lazy to read during holidays loh. Have been hearing comments bout this book.. doesn't seems as nice as the other books by him. But watever it is, i find the angels and demons really nice. Have its own special way of captivating my attention, unlike the da vinci code.
i seriously wanna go kbox dis week.. but its like quite hard to organise people to go together. Then there's quite a few movies i wanna watch aso.. oh well, guess most of them my friends aso watch le. Arh, i'm going to rot at home..
Oh.. i went around looking for a new blog skin, but couldn't find one dat suit me loh. Guess i'm just fated to stick to this one.. its not that bad rite?! *i don't care even if its bad* haha.. Hm, trying to start reading the da vinci code by dan brown.. but abit lazy to read during holidays loh. Have been hearing comments bout this book.. doesn't seems as nice as the other books by him. But watever it is, i find the angels and demons really nice. Have its own special way of captivating my attention, unlike the da vinci code.
i seriously wanna go kbox dis week.. but its like quite hard to organise people to go together. Then there's quite a few movies i wanna watch aso.. oh well, guess most of them my friends aso watch le. Arh, i'm going to rot at home..
Saturday, July 09, 2005
term test is over~! finally after one whole week of terrible lack of sleep.. Ironically, now dat i can catch some sleep, i'm here late into the night blogging. seriously i'm like gonna switch off any moment le. not really in the right mind now. Well, the last paper today ended at 10 plus. suppose i didn't really study much for this paper one.. but last part of the test ended up like some discussion session, so got most of my answers from there. haha..guess i'm quite used to copying or being copied. i'm like in an environment where copying is common.. so its just some bad habits picked up.
aniway, after the paper today we went up to the lab. wanted to go view our experiment results, but no lab technicians around. in the end we went to the computer lab instead to play computer games. played till 12 plus den left skool. Eh we went marina to eat sakae buffet lunch. The place was spacious and wasn't very crowded loh, pleasant environment. we seriously eat from 3 to 6 loh.. ate till we're all tired, dats how exaggerating. After buffet we spent our time walking around.. slack all the way till 8 plus den left. Was so tired loh~!
oh yah, my backache is giving me problems recently. either i'm not sleeping well, or my back really got problem la. somehow i refuse to visit the chinese sinseh again after he just gave me medication to take the last time. Oh well, i seems to have many things on my mind now, but i can't process them well le.. shall blog again...
aniway, after the paper today we went up to the lab. wanted to go view our experiment results, but no lab technicians around. in the end we went to the computer lab instead to play computer games. played till 12 plus den left skool. Eh we went marina to eat sakae buffet lunch. The place was spacious and wasn't very crowded loh, pleasant environment. we seriously eat from 3 to 6 loh.. ate till we're all tired, dats how exaggerating. After buffet we spent our time walking around.. slack all the way till 8 plus den left. Was so tired loh~!
oh yah, my backache is giving me problems recently. either i'm not sleeping well, or my back really got problem la. somehow i refuse to visit the chinese sinseh again after he just gave me medication to take the last time. Oh well, i seems to have many things on my mind now, but i can't process them well le.. shall blog again...
Friday, July 01, 2005
Today is the 2nd time i met Anthony. know him for 7 years le. Sometimes i feel dat time i really a scary thing.. passes so quickly that u have no time to tink of the past. Well, i was only sec 1 when i know antz.. thru irc. He was just another fren i knew, but he became my 'kor'.. well, after many many years, surprisingly we still kept in contact without even knowing wat each other looks like.
it was another normal day in skool, just dat there wasn't any lesson dis afternoon. Happen that there's this SAF exhibition going on. i actualy didn't even intend to go for the exhibition, but just went to look for a fren. i have no idea why i actually tot of msging antz aso la.. den a moment later he called. He said he saw me.. at that moment i felt quite amazing loh. wat i meant was, he actually remembers how i look like. Eh, for the next 40 mins or so, was walking round the area looking at all the euipments and tanks there loh. took a few pics, and oh, took a pic with antz aso la. well, the rest of the day was quite ok. lessons were as per normal, just dat now everyone so tensed up coz of term test next week.
Arh time really changes many things.. i can sense myself changing. As in my perception now to many things is very different from the past. attitude and feelings towards certain things too changed. Just like the other day.. i saw dis dog dead by the road side, somewhere near the expressway. should be those hit-and-run cases again la. well, my reaction to it was so calm dat i myself got shocked. in the past i would definitely be so agitated, and would be scolding the heartless driver and all. not dat now i'm not sad, but its dat somehow my feelings are numbed. Don't like dis kind of feeling seriously.. its like i'm losing my own true feelings..
it was another normal day in skool, just dat there wasn't any lesson dis afternoon. Happen that there's this SAF exhibition going on. i actualy didn't even intend to go for the exhibition, but just went to look for a fren. i have no idea why i actually tot of msging antz aso la.. den a moment later he called. He said he saw me.. at that moment i felt quite amazing loh. wat i meant was, he actually remembers how i look like. Eh, for the next 40 mins or so, was walking round the area looking at all the euipments and tanks there loh. took a few pics, and oh, took a pic with antz aso la. well, the rest of the day was quite ok. lessons were as per normal, just dat now everyone so tensed up coz of term test next week.
Arh time really changes many things.. i can sense myself changing. As in my perception now to many things is very different from the past. attitude and feelings towards certain things too changed. Just like the other day.. i saw dis dog dead by the road side, somewhere near the expressway. should be those hit-and-run cases again la. well, my reaction to it was so calm dat i myself got shocked. in the past i would definitely be so agitated, and would be scolding the heartless driver and all. not dat now i'm not sad, but its dat somehow my feelings are numbed. Don't like dis kind of feeling seriously.. its like i'm losing my own true feelings..